April 22nd, 2009

gotou masafumi

it seems like everyone is in san francisco having a slightly magical time

soon i will go to explain to important people why i did so poorly last semester and why i should get a semester or two to improve my grades and to figure out a Plan.

but i will have to pretend that i am so very motivated when secretly i feel like these are only the first failures in a long list of failures that i haven't gotten to yet.

my friend jonathan said some smart things about the whole thing. he also agreed with me that saying i want to leave will just make it easier for me to give up, but if i don't really want to give up i should stop saying it.

mostly i just talk about it too much.